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Have you ever known something? I mean really known it — deep in your gut, in your spirit, in every fiber of your being — but still couldn’t trust it? So you ask one person. Then another. Then another. Not because you’re unsure… but because you don’t trust your own mind anymore. That’s PTSI. And PTSI lies to you. Most people think PTSI looks like flashbacks. Or rage. Or punching holes in drywall. And sure — sometimes it does. But more often, PTSI lives quietly between your ear

There’s no easy way to open something like this, but I felt it necessary to report the grim statistics. According to First H.E.L.P., 129 first responder suicides were reported in 2025. And you and I both know the real unspoken, unreported number is way higher. That number represents firefighters, law enforcement, EMTs, and dispatchers. One hundred and twenty-nine lives. One hundred and twenty-nine families torn apart. There really is no silver lining in any of this, but the

This was probably my worst call ever. I stepped on the body of that little girl in that lake. I was searching for her in the swimming area by the beach. The park ranger told us she was in the woods. We searched the lake. It was a sunny, hot September day, late in the afternoon. I remember it like it was yesterday. The worst part... the part that I will probably never eradicate from my brain- was the gut-splitting wail that little girl's mother screamed as she collapsed on

Lately, I can’t remember sh**. My old man used to say that he suffers from CRS (can't remember sh**). Maybe it's hereditary... who knows. I’ll walk out the door and realize I left my wallet on the counter. Go back inside. Walk out again. Forgot my keys. Some days I honestly couldn’t tell you what I had for breakfast. And before anyone jumps in with “That’s just getting older”—maybe. But it’s more than that. Because this kind of forgetfulness doesn’t feel normal. It feels fogg